I had a wonderful day yesterday!

We went to the park for a bit and got to spend some time out in nature. It was very healing and I got a good walk out of it, though I probably should've worn a different shirt... It was a lot warmer than I expected it to be.

I was also really excited to get to see the guy I like later in the day!

I got to watch him play one of my favorite games for a little while before we watched some movies. I had the time of my life!

I've been having such a nice month that it almost doesn't feel real. I've been waiting for this kind of feeling for so long now that I almost don't know how to handle it...

Maybe I should just let myself be happy?

I have had the most beautiful month so far!

The other day I went on a date with the guy I've liked for a while as a birthday treat. We were out for a long time and we talked and talked for hours... It made me so happy.

The sky looked so gorgeous as the sun started to set and I felt so peaceful.

My birthday is actually today! I have officially turned 26.

It's funny. Even though I still don't know what I want to do with my life, I feel a little less bothered by that right now than I have in the past...

I haven't been so happy in years...

I've been applying for jobs today.

I've finally had enough of the way I'm treated at the one I have now.

I'm so tired of letting people talk to me however they want. So tired of just letting everything slide.

But I don't know what else I can do.

Maybe when I find something else that's suitable, I'll just flat out quit the one I have now without giving a two week's notice. I don't want to mess things up for myself, but my boss really doesn't deserve the formality.

I think this job has been a big part of the reason I'm so low on energy and in such a bad mood all the time. I think it's time to change something, and I think that's the perfect thing to start with.

Now I just hope I hear something back... Maybe I'll start checking in on the places I've applied within the coming days.

I had to arrange all of the fake flowers by type yesterday!

I surprisingly had a lot of fun doing it. It's kind of made me think I'd like to be doing something with plants instead of working at some cheap store.

I've also been drawing again! I found my old drawing tablet and I've been working on one particular drawing for a few days now.

This is going to help me finish up my art site I think. It feels good to be able to do something creative again.

I guess maybe it just feels good to have the motivation to do it at all?